"It's Easier Now" by Jason Molina
Behind these eyes a desert spirit
Sea serpent heart inside a sunken ship
I finally got it
All parts wrong
I didn't know how long it would take to do it
Behind these eyes
Dead grey mule
Torn apart moon in an empty room
It's easier now
And I just say I got better
It's easier now
That I just say I got better
I rarely write here anymore. I rarely share online in general. Who would want to read it? Who would want to know my reality?
She was my life. Do you understand? My life. My everything. All that I lived for. My mother. My source.
She's now in an urn in the living room. It is a horror. It is incomprehensible.
I'm surprised I am still here. I'm surprised my body and my heart haven't given out.
The pain tears through me like a violent force.
There is nothing to write. There is nothing to say. Inside this abyss. There is only the fight to survive moment by terrible moment.