Nightmare is too gentle a word for what it feels like to live without my mother. I'm not sure how I'm supposed to do it for the rest of my life. I'm not sure what this world can offer me with my parents gone, or what the point of all this is. We lose those we love and we have no idea where they are or why we lose them and we're expected to act like this is all normal. The life I had for almost 36 years with her is over and done. And there is nothing to really replace it. If I had children, a partner, a different life, then maybe I could manage better. It's just nothingness.
"Requiem for Dying Mothers, Pt. 1" by Stars of the Lid
"Requiem for Dying Mothers, Pt. 2" by Stars of the Lid